Hey

I am not dead! I am very much alive. I am so happy right now. I love my life.
My boyfriend does try. I know I complain and he messes up but then he turns around and does something right!
I dont think he has dated much so I am trying my hardest to be patient and let him know when something is not right.
His grandpa died Thurs on his mom's birthday of all days and he wanted me to attend the wake with him on Sunday. I said I would. He goes to a lot of parties and galas with me so I thought it would be appreciated that I go.
He calls me Sat and says he misses me and he wanted to hang out and to bring my clothes for the wake and stay over.
He went on a trip and I complained because he did not call me once. He said he got his butt kicked at work for not calling me. He said I could have called him but I explained to him that he was on vacation not me and if I went away for 5 days and did not call and was flying wouldnt he wonder about me? he said yes so this trip he knows better and will call.
Sunday after the wake he wanted me to stay again because he said he was going to miss me a lot since he leaves Sat to go skiing again. But I had work today so I couldnt.
It was a very draining day and all I wanted to do was go home and sleep and maybe watch some of the game but we had a party at the house so I had to stay up the whole time.
I am/was exhausted.
But on the way home I was thinking about things and I have a roof over my head, I do have a good boyfriend, I love my parents, I love my sister and my nephew, I have a car (that keeps running), I have a job with benefits, I have friends that I love, I have a dog, I have lots of clothes and nice things, etc. What do I really have to complain about?
Nothing......so maybe I should stop.
I know sometimes I do when I get aggravated but maybe I need to breathe first then think about what it is that is really bothering me before I open my mouth.