thoughts from my mynd.......

Sometimes due to my accent.....whatever......I get asked "Where are you from?"

My favorite response "From the dirty dirty south playa. I am from that 504 diztrict. New Orleans." They stare at me for a second.....then I say "Yeah I grew up where smoker's out back were selling their mama's sofas." If they ask me "Is it that bad?" I reply with "I use to get in trouble back in da day but the law one...the sheriff got shot but them fella's forgot his son."

Yeah that tells me if they down or not. Most of the time my sister and I say this for shits and giggles. No need to be proper with us. We are from a different culture all together. We know. My boyfriend tells me I am from another country. He has been there.

I tell people....."people are so passionate about New Orleans and LA because it is raw." nuff said.


Other thoughts coming to my mynd are:

I realize how not keeping up with technology can hinder someone. It keeps you in the part of society that is slower. I look at my grandma and realize how she has kept her self uneducated. She refuses to keep up with the way society is going and depends on people. She keeps herself in the dark and therefore is behind in societal standards.I know part of this is she feels old and from another genration. She has a pattern, a way of life, etc. In today's world one can keep a pattern but how they may do one thing may have to change. For example one day answering the phone will be of a foreign event. We will soon be talking to people on the computer. Right now the thing most that changes is how I receive and send information. I think people are looking for something for their soul. The psychology and spirituality section has grown so much in the past decade. People want a faith, a higher power, a better sense of self. With this transition into a faster means of communication we have somehow lost who we are.

I conisder my sister beautiful. She has given me the best gift on Earth. She has given me my nephew. I missed his birth but she knew it was best for me. I had to move to another state to make a better life for me. Whenever I see her and my nephew even in photos, I get a feeling of peace and calm.I know he will have the best life that can be provided to him. He is definitly not without at this time. She has sacrificed a lot to bring him into this world. I often wish I could do more for her. Words cannot express how much I love them and what she has done. He will be someone great.

I think people who are spiritual recognize that there is a God and that we should try to live by his works. I think people who are religious focus their entire life based on their faith (such as Jews). They live for their faith.I believe fanatics go too far and instead of getting people to convert by actions create demonstrations and verbally try to insult you to get you to convert. I do not believe in this.

I am on fiyah i know :)

Hey

I am not dead! I am very much alive. I am so happy right now. I love my life.
My boyfriend does try. I know I complain and he messes up but then he turns around and does something right!
I dont think he has dated much so I am trying my hardest to be patient and let him know when something is not right.
His grandpa died Thurs on his mom's birthday of all days and he wanted me to attend the wake with him on Sunday. I said I would. He goes to a lot of parties and galas with me so I thought it would be appreciated that I go.
He calls me Sat and says he misses me and he wanted to hang out and to bring my clothes for the wake and stay over.
He went on a trip and I complained because he did not call me once. He said he got his butt kicked at work for not calling me. He said I could have called him but I explained to him that he was on vacation not me and if I went away for 5 days and did not call and was flying wouldnt he wonder about me? he said yes so this trip he knows better and will call.
Sunday after the wake he wanted me to stay again because he said he was going to miss me a lot since he leaves Sat to go skiing again. But I had work today so I couldnt.
It was a very draining day and all I wanted to do was go home and sleep and maybe watch some of the game but we had a party at the house so I had to stay up the whole time.
I am/was exhausted.
But on the way home I was thinking about things and I have a roof over my head, I do have a good boyfriend, I love my parents, I love my sister and my nephew, I have a car (that keeps running), I have a job with benefits, I have friends that I love, I have a dog, I have lots of clothes and nice things, etc. What do I really have to complain about?
Nothing......so maybe I should stop.
I know sometimes I do when I get aggravated but maybe I need to breathe first then think about what it is that is really bothering me before I open my mouth.